"MY AMBIGUITIES"

Incredible change is what i feel,
loss of confidence is dificult to heel,
is there anyone with whom i can read?
The sense of ambiguity still persist,
lost in my world,
I FEEL!

growing my age and so is my individuality,
no one can stop the rupturous personality!
i think to respond my own way
as i have to go far away and away!
but the persisting ambiguity still persist
and lost in my world
I FEEL!

i am spellbound by the majesty of the CROWN!
the way he created the world beneath his frown.
hope the answers of my ambiguities i could find in him
I FEEL being in my world
but my ambiguities still persist.
yes....my ambiguities still persist!!!

!!!! THE PATHOS OF A DAUGHTER!!!

sigh...
I watch a story!
something unique is attractive in it
the characters and morals it carry with!
i go deep down in its core
to understand it more and more
but the domination prevails
and peripheries are drawn to stop me and constrain.
oh father.....i am speechless!

cannot the things change which suits everyone?
or only me have to change the defination of fun?
tell me.....tell me.....the source of my anguish
which invokes me and force me to perish!
my agony is less the worth
that is why it get burried down the hearth!
sigh....I watch a story my father!

writing the things need not change the situations
but i tell you
My inquisitiveness knows no bounds.
It will continue its journey
far and long.....
bong! bong!
I will speak being speechless
oh father...let me speak!
let me watch a story!

The very first section of my blog is for the poems which i write and will definately keep it update time to time...here i go...

!!!!!ESTABLISHING THE SELF!!!!!!

The self in me
is hidden from me,
uncontrolled and scary feelings haunts me filthly,
oh god! tell me
is this self exists in me?

independent bee trust in thee,
but to prove the self she needs the key!
she stood determined,
terrified and rooted,
oh god! tell me
is this self exists in me?

living in the present
i thought no future,
just drove the car
with guidance as share!
ultimately i am done with it
and felt the life a bit.
waiting for pa to come and praise
i waited long and long at the gate.
he came bearing no confidence in me
but his smile said everything in he.
hope i am not dreaming!
oh god! tell me
is this self exists in me?